Not like that! Filth.
I've returned with a smile on my face and have also changed in colour from transparent white to a more opaque beige. Closest thing to a tan I've ever had. Might even be able to pass off as a human for a little while. Needless to say, I'm gutted to be back in reality, where all the cooking and cleaning isn't done for me while I'm busy pickling my liver with local beers and cocktails. Also, it's hard to leave behind something that looks as pretty as this:
Pretty surroundings not own back/backside, but thanks for saying! ;)
I had a go at that "relaxing" thing I'd heard so much about, and I think that for a couple of days, I think I even managed to crack it! Burned through two really bloody good books:
- Maya Angelou - I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings (suggestion courtesy of http://shewantstoread.blogspot.co.uk/ if you're looking for summat to eat with your eyes. Handy blog!).
- Karen Joy Fowler - We Are All Completely Beside ourselves
Another side effect of all the relaxing I've been dabbling in is that I seem to have further hindered my ability to run. All the focusing on CrossFit and sitting on my backside in between sessions has rendered my cardiovascular fitness all but fucked. I tried to run three miles yesterday, and had to walk even during that, which rarely used to happen unless I'd hurt myself. Seems I'm back to square one-and-a-bit on the running front. I have a 10k to do tomorrow along Swansea's sea front and Cardiff half marathon to do in a couple of weeks. Daunted isn't even the word!
On the other hand, I find my new total lack of aerobic fitness strangely encouraging. Because I now know that my recent inability to run very steadily or far is more physical than mental, it feels much more fixable. Fitness is simpler. You just do more of the thing you find yourself crap at until you're not as crap anymore. I got complacent with running, and my sudden onset rubbishness has given me a point to start from all over again, so I'm able to make it a priority without hating every single second of it. If that makes even a blob of sense.
The next two races I'm going to do are going to be a nightmare, but I know I'll finish, whether it means crawling around the route and weeping for my mummy. But by jove, I'll be doing it! Cant wait to tell you about them =).
